Went to campus together with Jedi today!! And that was a great time! It's been a while since we took a bus to campus together. Makes me remembered our early days x') For me, spending one whole day with Jedi is a rare and expensive moments.

We went home together, and he wrote a thing of two on my organizer. Messing "Sissy's" name and all. I dont care that much, as mush as i dont care to Sissy anymore.
Then we walked to our own house. Yups! That's right.. WALKING! but it was so much fun! Watching a pick up truck smashing tomato souce that we threw on the street.. LOL

But.. when I got home, sonya sms me, and I told Jedi about it. Our conversation goes to my blog, and how much he wanna read it. But I havent gave him the permission. I dont feel, that I'm ready yet. But he jsut misunderstood my way of thinking. I cant make him happy for a day, cant i? >x'(

This blog contains all my inward parts, my deep thoughts, my dreams, my complaints for life and my environment. It becomes so personal, that I dont know what will happen if others read it. Especially the ones that their names is listed here. Yaiks! What will they think of me? Maybe they'll understand, that whatever i wrote here, is my own opinion bout the world. And nobody can take that freedom from me, but myself. But will I able to take the risk that follows?

Dear Jedi.. i f one day u finally read this, please understand my fear. I cant bear the thoughts of losing you, becoz of what i'm thinking and dreaming bout you..